Heard you the other day. Talkin' to someone who didn't know nothin' so you thought no one who knew somethin' would hear. Well, I heard. And I'm calling you on the carpet, and this isn't the nice, friendly, hey have a piece of cake kind of calling you on the carpet, and it's not even the not-so-bad pouring applesauce on your head kind of calling you on the carpet. This is the, What were thinking? kind of calling you on the carpet -- the kind that comes with a slap on the face and a kick in the rear.
"A writer, well, yeah, I'm trying to be."
That's what you said.
Yes, it is.
You may not have said it out loud. You may not have said in print. You may not have said it telepathically to the alien mother of your best friend from the galaxy of telepathic people. But you said it.
Whatever happened to, "One of the most important things steps in being a writer is just saying you're a writer." Whatever happened to, "If you're writing, you're a writer -- not an aspiring writer, but a writer." Whatever happened to, "Trying to be published doesn't mean you're trying to be a writer; writing means being a writer."
Notice no question marks.
Because those weren't really questions.
I know the answer as much as you do.
What happened it that you copped out. Because it's easier to say, "I'm trying to be a writer," then it is to say, "I'm a writer who's not getting much writing done." Because that sounds like failure. That sounds like it's some how your fault. Like you're falling short of the mark. But if you're trying, then, hey, that's a frickin' A for Effort and a parade down-town with ice cream and confetti and elephants and you're so full of it.
Yeah, you're really busy right now. Yeah, you're sick again. Yeah, you can't get your head clear or your emotions straight or your brain awake or your fingers on the dang keyboard.
Maybe you don't have the hours in your day right now. Maybe your creative juices are flowing like the tears of a tar-pit mammoth. Maybe you can barely stay awake or keep from crying or stop yourself from coughing.
So flipping what?
Seriously, bro. So what?
Oh, I know. If you say you're a writer then you feel guilty for not writing. Guilt means pressure and stress and crying and sleeping and coughing.
Sometimes people don't do the thing they want to do or need to do or feel like they should do. Sometimes, people can only do what they can do. In any walk of life.
So you don't get off the hook. A guy isn't "Trying to be a manager," because he his boss has him working on a project rather than managing. Or "Trying to be a baseball player," because he's laid up with an injury. Or "Trying to be a painter," because she's just had eye surgery and can't see right now.
You're not trying to be a writer. You are a writer.
So shut it.
And stop stressing.