Last night, I finished Sublimation. It's hard to describe what that feels like. I think my emotions are appropriately surreal. Another author I directed me to this quote by Truman Capote:
Finishing a book is just like you took a child out in the backyard and shot it.
The same author described this as a bit of typical melodrama.
Given my own penchant for writing larger than life, it's probably not out of place to feel a bit melodramatic about completing the book. I would hesitate to describe it as shooting a child, but I also sort of understand.
I have finished books in the past, but this is the first book I have finished with the intent to publish and a belief that it is a good book. I'm excited about that. I'm proud of it. I feel a sense of satisfaction.
At the same time, as I prepare to send off a query, I'm understandably nervous. At this point in my writing career I've gotten to a point where I can send off stories for consideration without more than a few butterflies and typically with only a little disappointment if they don't immediately find a home. A book is an entirely different animal (as it were) and I really have no idea how my emotions are going to endure the roller coaster which likely awaits me.
I also know, being fairly pragmatic about my writing, that the form in which Sublimation exists now is not its final form. It's a good book. It's in good shape. Agents, editors, and publishers will nevertheless recommend changes. Some of those changes will be for quality, others for practical reasons, and others for marketing reasons. Right now, the book is my work. Before we're done, it will be much more of a team product.
On top of all that, I've spent a whole lot of life energy on this book. And now it's done. There will be a lot of work -- a lot of work -- but it's already time for my emotional investment to move on. As soon as I send out my query on Sublimation, it's time to shift the energy of my writing life into Ennui and Malaise, my next thriller, which currently sits at about 40,000 words.
So, yeah, I guess in a way I understand what Capote meant.
What is Sublimation?
I'm so glad you asked!
Sublimation is a dark thriller about surreal evil, good gone too good, and a man whose twisted past just might end the world -- or save it.
Sublimation is a novel of psychological suspense, in which one man's twisted past puts more than himself at risk and one woman tries to figure out if she's too good for her own good, or her family's.
Sublimation is about what happens when a group of men start gambling for the right to set off bombs, and the only people who can stop them are their own figure head and a federal investigator who can't see past the rules.
Sublimation is the story of a man and a woman, each of whom finds past and future twisted together to keep the present shadowed in a darkness that is shadowed by innocent lives lost.
You can read a little more about Sublimation by visiting my official website.